Looking Back and Forward - from mom's view

This morning I woke up and remembered that a week ago today I was in the hospital.  What a crazy ride that was.  Not many women get to say that they not only went into labor but also had their water broken, were given Pitocin to regulate contractions, had a needle shoved into their spine (lets see…) 7 times, pushed for 1.5 hrs, given Terbutaline to decrease and hopefully stop contractions, then had an emergency C-section.  All within about 19hrs!!!  When I remove myself from the situation I can say that I went through so much to give birth – but when I put it into context of having this little miracle I can easily say that it was worth it.  I would do it all again just to be blessed with this little love!  Not only were we blessed with the gift of life but I also found a new respect for myself and for my body.  I learned so much about control and when it comes down to it – we are not in control.  And if we are able to just give up the control our bodies and our God know what to do. 

 

Having Jonah in our life has been incredible.  He has been a confirmation of many things that we always knew were true.  One of those things being the strength of our marriage.  I can’t imagine having a child when your marriage is not strong or when you are just starting out a marriage together.  (of course this doesn’t mean it can’t be done – I just can’t imagine it)  Rob and I have worked so well together and we make a great team!  The respect that we have for one another has gone through the roof within the last week.  I have seen Rob once again rise to the challenge when the going gets tough.  He is having to take care of a newborn and his wife who is recovering from surgery.  He has done laundry, dishes, made dinner, late night feedings, LOTS of diaper changes, consoled mom when she has been crying and has brought laughter to situations where anger could have easily been chosen.  My love, respect and admiration for Rob is the highest it has ever been. 

 

Last night Jonah slept through the night – what a momentous occasion for two new parents!  Rob went and got him from his crib about 8:30am – changed him and brought him to bed with us.  After Rob fed Jonah the three of us just laid in bed together.  Rob and I held hands and stared at this little boy who God had given us.  Everything felt so right – as if that is how life is meant to be.  My sister asked me yesterday, “do you feel like your life has changed?”  Rob and I both answered that although life has changed – in a way it hasn’t.  Jonah just fits into our life.  It is as if the last piece to the puzzle was found and finally the picture is complete.  Yes, even during the 3am bottle feedings or the 20 min. crying jags – life is how it should be. 

 

And with that – I must go now to wake up the boys who are still sleeping.  It’s time to give Jonah a bath so that we can go on with another day.  Life for sure is an adventure now!